Thoughts

As we grow older, we get wiser. We forego the habit of gaining social acceptance, except for a few people who stop growing with time. They are still out (as in left out?) trying to gain acceptance which seems to be a social obligation keeping in mind a number of things. They fail to realise what a sheer ass they have become!! Not that I have not been in that phase ;) But before you strive to get social acceptance, it is important to accept yourself. With the passage of time you become a different reflection in the mirror. It's important to embrace that very reflection with a smile on your face. Look down at the number of achievements time has let you achieve. It has let many people in and out of your life and that too with a good cause.

I have managed to pen down my thoughts after so many years. And exactly where have I been busy?? Busy in gaining a social acceptance in the society. I would be wrong if I said no. But yes, with the passage of time I have gained a lot but still trying to accept myself.

Chance

We all get a chance in life.

Either we've thrown it away, gave it up, wrecked it,

Lived it up to the fullest, took it for granted, or got far in it.

But still we had one.

What we could do..what could have been done

Remembering that now can’t be undone.

There was a time when we didn’t think much

For what other people would think of us.

But now we’re walking in the shadow of fear

Drowning away in an endless tear.

All life twisting our fate and thinking for people

We’re still being judged for what we say and wear.

Trying hard to survive in a manipulative world

Where good and evil co-exist as peers.

It takes a step further beyond our thinking

Who am I?

Names are many...feelings are one.

Just like that...Part II

·         When I’m tensed…I start hogging like a pig! Does that happen with others as well?

·         Chocolate seems so good in times of distress…

·         Love is all I have to keep me going…I would have collapsed long ago.

·         I literally need to drag myself out of bed everyday…and my mind is filled with weird thoughts on how to take a day off from work!

·         I’m a dreamer…with 1000 things in my head…going on in the same time…I still manage to complete my tasks with perfection! In short…I’m a genius!

·         I can’t help dreaming about food! It’s always there in the back of my mind…Sometimes I think I’m obsessed with food! Imagine you're in the middle of something really important..and you start getting wierd cravings(I mean specific here)!

·         Crying seems like the best option at time…wish crying could make things right.

·         I tend to visualize things and start living in that world…sometimes it becomes difficult to get me out of it…it almost seems like a reality!

·       Sometimes you just need to vent it out! Stop thinking of what other people will think…remember...they are not your saviours!

·         I don’t forget a single thing in the world…especially the ones that I should so that I can move on in life…but I forget simple things (I mean really simple..like..Peoples names…Movies that I’ve seen…To pay bills on time…And I’m trying real hard to remember the things I forget!).

·         Why do I always think negative? I start visualizing how things would be and then become sad.

·         Old and bad memories keep on haunting me…keep making me even sadder. How can one let go of such things? Any advice?

Mine

He came from nowhere, forever to stay

Taking that which was not is, yet willingly given

Nothing done or said, but spirits entwine

A longing empowering, but surprisingly he's mine.

:-)

Take me to the Place

where I belong....

I'll never say a thing

And I'll sing your favorite song :-)

A New Beginning :-)

Hi Guyzz...finally I'm back after a 4 months break :-)....am uploading a few of my marriage pics :-)
(Sorry for being late :P)

Bliss

The wind said I am you
I said I am you

The wind stopped…
I looked…

I walked…
The wind looked…

The wind blew…
I stopped…

When the wind turned back,
I was blowing away…

Bliss!

LOVE LOST

A silken thread broken
Another tear stained face
Flush of emotions gone wasted
Lonely arms left to embrace.


Sweet bitter memories
Some unspoken lines
Two hearts pounding hard
A story that could have been mine.

Article in IIT magazine!!!

My new article:


http://www.iitk.ac.in/ime/MBA_IITK/avantgarde/archives/Feb-09/BOC-V-Feb09.pdf

Workshop on Team Integration

This week we had a workshop organised on Team Integration. I would like to mention it was the best training I've ever attended and we had loads of fun. Credit goes to our trainer, Dr Pramod Tripathi who not only was a fantastc trainer but came across as a beautiful human being too. Kudos to him!!!

At the end of the workshop, we felt fresh and rejuvenated. Ofcourse we learnt a few things too. Some important one's are:

• Appreciate self and others preferances and behaviour from a deeper psychologcal perspective.
• Develop and strengthen relationships and communication within sub-teams and across teams to enhance teamwork.
• Evolve a clear 'Team Action Contract' to implement the changes after the workshop.
• Accept individuals the way they are. [Everyone is normal and healthy]
• Clear understanding of own self.
• Deep insight into individuals behaviourial patterns [Why do individuals behave the way they do]
• Introduction to The Myers - Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) and The Thomas - Kilmann Conflict Mode Instrument (TKI).

Now the fun part :P We got to play so many fun games and team building activities resulting in a higher interaction with the topmost management ;) We had to discuss our positive and negative points of not only ourselves but also others. That ways we got to gossip infront of the person itself!!! Dr Pramod took a promise from us that we would abide by the 'Team Contract' and asked us to write a poem thinking we have overcome our obstacles and we'r very happy. Here it goes:

I am happy and I am glad

That I'm rich and very famous

Coz my team has worked with me

And their shyness has gone over.

I am happy and I am glad

With no tensions and no worries

Coz now I'm more patient

In dealing with my buddies

P.S. You need to sing it along :P

01 January, 2009

IT IS the First day of 2009...Thought i should have updated my blog before the day is officially over...Hmm...truly wish 2009 is a better year, at least better than 2008...2008 was definitely not a good year, with the terrorist attacks on taj....it saddened the festive spirit...hopefully 2009 gives us the strength to wipe out the dreadfull tragedy from the very history of India.

Just like that...

• During tough times… only you can help yourself. Nobody else can. Friends are always there… but only to support you through everything. Ultimately YOU are your only aid.
• Someone once said I am an emotional fool. I love being one :P
• Happiness is followed by sadness and vice-versa. This moment you are sad about something…things will change the next moment.
• Sometimes chocolates seem to be the best cure to your problems :P
• Nobody is worth losing your self-respect. But sometimes you have to lose yourself…. not for anybody but for your own survival.
• People are very often misunderstood. Watch your words before you speak out.
• Apart from food, water and air…you need LOVE to LIVE unless you are the successor of Osama bin laden.
• Cry…until you have no more tears left. And then you will start laughing like a pig :P

No...no...i'm not sad or depressed!!! Just some thoughts comin in my empty mind :P

Life moves on.....

Life has an important responsibility of teaching us new things. At times we praise it and at times we curse it. But it sure has its meaning intact, in place. As I ponder on this unsolved riddle, I see a bewildering array of missions, some achieved and some waiting to be achieved. It’s amazing how simple life can seem at times. It give’s us the strength to fight where at times we are left alone to live our sorrows. But as time passes by, life makes us more powerful and confident by making us face numerous obstacles standing in the middle of our journey.

As Henry Miller has quoted, “Life moves on with its pre-defined purpose. Life has no other discipline to impose, if we would but realize it, than to accept life unquestioningly. Everything we shut our eyes to, everything we run away from, everything we deny, denigrate or despise, serves to defeat us in the end. What seems nasty, painful, evil can become a source of beauty, joy and strength, if faced with an open mind.”

Back to Blogging n Shopping :P

Soooooo……what was keeping me occupied for one month????


Loads of things….my Mommy had undergone an operation so I was busy with hospital and stuff. Did I add I hate hospitals and not to mention Doctors. They all look the same as if they are devoid of human emotions. They come with a stern look and a plastic smile on their faces. And I simply hate it when they address every single person as PATIENT repeatedly asking, “Patient kaisa hai?" , “Patient ne aaj thik se khaya?", “Patient ko thoda uthake ghumao”. Is it that difficult to call somebody by their name??? Coming back to hospitals, the very smell of them makes me feel nauseas. It’s a peculiar kind of smell which does not leave your nostrils even when you’re out. I wont wish to enter that place again. Anyways, my Mommy is fine and recovering now. :-)


Now to the wedding shopping, since work permits me with hardly anytime for the luxury of shopping, the only time left with me to shop is on weekends. I’ve gone through all sorts of materials and designs of salwar kameez and lehngas, not to forget saris. Chiffons, georgette, crape, silk, net, satin….you just have to name it. I’ve overall made a good collection of saris and suits, so far. But I guess…I still have a long way to go!!!

Love Poem

It's been long since I've updated my blog :P....Nothin great...just busy with work n shopping...hehehe...by the way...I just came across this lovely poem and found it worth sharing. It's beautiful and sweet...simply romantic!!!

I fly like a bird

to be where you are,

to spend just an evening

in your place afar..

Beautiful music

and exquisite wine -

never has love been

quite so divine!

But soon I must leave

so kiss me farewell,

the last dance is over

as love stories tell.

I'll never forget

the magic of you,

as I'm flying back home

OH! are you coming too?

Beautiful romance

it's love on the wing,

never has true love

made my heart and soul sing.

The Colour RED

RED RED RED….nowadays I’m obsessed with the colour RED.


Red is hot. It's a strong color that conjures up a range of seemingly conflicting emotions from passionate love to violence and warfare. Red is Cupid and the Devil.




Ain't it cute??!!!





NWAYZ...

Red is power, hence the red power tie for business people and the red carpet for celebrities and VIPs. Whenever you’re feeling low, just wear a red outfit to pep up your mood and it also helps in boosting your confidence. I’m sure females would agree with me on that. My friend came to office wearing blood red nail polish. I kinda liked that too!!! ;-)




Flashing red lights denote danger or emergency. Stop signs and stop lights are red to get the drivers' attention and alert them to the dangers of the intersection.





In some cultures, red denotes purity, joy, and celebration. Red is the color of happiness and prosperity in China and may be used to attract good luck. Red is often the color worn by brides in the East.





And does that explain it all?? Marriage is on “my“ cards :P. That explains my fascination for the colour.

Describing Feelings…

Feelings are hard to get out because we've been trained to THINK rather than FEEL.

You know that feeling when something makes you really excited. Like that feeling when you first meet someone that you really really like. It gives you a tingle in your tummy. A smile on your face.

A feeling when you feel on top of the world, feel like going on the rooftop and screaming out loud. A funny funny feeling, creating ripples in your tummy and you just keep on wandering what is happening !!!

So what are butterfly feelings??? Is it something like you meet someone and you want to know more about the person. You feel something that you have no idea what exactly it is but you know something is there!!! You long to be with the person, feelings of nervousness, a feeling of want and possession.

It’s like adding sugar instead of salt and still not making out the difference.

Now…you must be thinking what has gone in to my head. You might have been lost in thoughts or might just roll up your eyes thinking what crap it is :P

TIRED!!!

So…I’m tired again. Seems like all my energy has been drenched out.

I woke up this morning, feeling tired, miserable and depressed. Felt like pulling the blanket over my head and just go to sleep!!! I have absolutely no idea why I’m feeling like this. Is it work??? Hmmmmm….perhaps that’s the reason.

Seems like its been ages that I’m working. Did I tell you I completed 3 successful years in the same company :P now I feel I should go on a long vacation, far from the city and pollution. Just want to spend some time with myself, alone, probably in the mountains or near the sea. Any place which is close to mother nature would do. Feel like smelling fresh mountain air, sitting close to the sea or just gazing at the moon an stars. I’m just hating the idea of getting up early in the morning, trying to put myself together, forcing my legs onto the ground :-(

I want a loooooooooongggggggggg break!!!!

ME......(",)

Wink, shy, blush, rosy, flirt, charm, n stare…..

Think, dream, wish, fantasize, illusion n fancy….

Smile, beam, grin, smirk, leer, sneer n frown….

Silly, ridiculous, childish, impractical, juvenile n stupid…

Foolish, thoughtless, crazy, rash, reckless n bizarre….

Babble, jabber, gibberish, mutter, chatter n nonsense…

Love, romance, fancy, passion, adoration n sweetheart…

Yep…that’s me!!! (",)

Colour :-)

It's so amazing how small things can add so much colour and zing to your life!!!

I got these teeny weeny balls form the market (size=ant :P). You just have to soak them in water for some time and voila...they become like oversized peas. It's so much fun to play with them. Trust me..I've gone completely topsy turvy over them!!! I've also clicked a few pics:

Ain't they cute??!!!! What next...gift it to anyone and see them turn into a child :-)

Don't believe me??? I got them for my Mom :P